New Thoughts...

So...in my Bible Study we are studying the book of Ruth. We've just begun so we are only in chapter 1 but already I feel the spirit moving me a bit....well to be quite honest...he's been moving me for awhile but by the grace of God it is slow and gentle. God is not a harsh cruel God Praise the Lord!! Anyway so we were studying when Naomi and Ruth go back to Israel and the people don't even recognize Naomi because she is so altered. She actually asks the women to call her by another name...Mara which means bitter. What is assumed is that Naomi was in such a negative state compared to her former self that they were not even sure who she was...ok so we questioned why Ruth would stay with her...why Ruth, who had no "relationship with the Lord" would stay with someone after that someone had lost their faith in that Lord.....So here's the deal.....I am extremely negative....grew up in the church...accepted Christ as a kid...grew into the faith....never had much of a rebellion or "life on the other side"....definetly questioned my faith (poor Keith) but never really lost it......but still am incredibly negative...My mother in law accepted Christ later in life....fully experienced life outside of Christ.....never wants to go back.....and has GREAT faith, not to mention....POSITIVITY!!! So granted I see myself as Naomi and my mom in law as Ruth (quite the opposite of the original story but still true)So I am wondering....are you born with the disposition to be negative (ie...have a hard time with faith) or positive (ie naturally led to "believe") or is it something that your parents help you see....or is it that you have to consciously make a decision to be one or the other every day.......In my case...I think it breaks down to decision which totally stinks.....(more negativity :) All those out there that positivity comes natural to are incredibly lucky! Praise the Lord you were made that way or your parents led you in that direction etc.....it's going to be a long struggle in my life to break the chains that I have built up in just 30 years. I am incredibly thankful that I have a loving family-in-law that seem to be blessed with this positive attitude and had I not married my wonderful husband I don't know where I would be...so everyone...please be patient with my negativness....I'm a work in progress :) :) :)

Yummy, Yummy, Yummy oh so Yummy for me...

We are surviving.....and almost done......36 hours from now all will be completely and totally as it should be :) So.....this posting is going to be about my favorite thing FOOD!!! I love to cook it I love to experiment with it....but most of all I LOVE TO EAT IT!!! So here's my most recent melting pot of recipes..........the delicious apple crispy..........

4-6 apples peeled cored and sliced
2 tbls of lemon juice
1/2 c brown sugar

mix these togethor in your baking pan

Topping:
1 1/2 cups of flour
2/3 cup of oatmeal
1 1/2 cups of white sugar
2 tsp cin
1/2 tsp salt

Mix togethor

Then add

2 eggs beaten
6-8 (Yum Yum Yum) table spoons of melted butter

Mix it up and put it on top of the apples.....put it in the oven at 375 for 40 minutes and you got one totally unhealthy but totally delicious and worth EVERY calorie apple crispy cobblery piey sort of dish.......YUM....my mouth is drooling......

Good Eats (that was in honor of you Drewbs)

Survival Mode....

Have you ever just gotten really depressed and wanted to wallow in it for awhile? I know I am being REALLY negative and bluntly honest but this is one of those times I feel like swimming in the sea of other peoples pity for a little while....The last month has been a really tough one, to say the least. I don't know what has been up but I have been a mean mommy and a very unsympathetic wife, a whining daughter and a lathargic aunt. What has got me feeling like this....one can only guess. A lot of it centers around Keith traveling a whole lot, making my job a 24/7 one...not to mention all the stuff going on in our lives with Lucy and the testing.....but it's more than that...it's like a lack of enthusiasm and general unhappines....don't worry...I am NOT suicidal....just having a rough time. I should try and be grateful for what we have...a house, health, jobs, family that is not sick, friends that love us and we love, a God that is good.....but it's really hard for me to think about all that when what is present is so pressing. Ok...that's enough of my personal venting session....on to more important things....
So Keith is gone in Las Vegas for awhile...then he'll be home for like 1 day and then he's leaving for his annual fishing trip (I know....I need to be supportive...I'm trying)....So I'll be a fishing/work widow for the next 2 weeks. Currently, my parents are also missing in action taking a much needed vacation to see my brothers and their families...this is all well and good except that they have Chickens, Cats and Dogs I have to take care of in their absence....Two wild dogs....three kids scared of the dogs....4 new baby kittens to keep the dogs away from, a bucket of slimy chicken water and a dusty poopy pen have been my friends these last 4 days....I shouldn't complain the chickens are mine and I paid for them (with mom) and I only take care of them when they are away...but right now....store bought eggs sound really good. Gideon is going to school...most days....this morning he missed the bus....the neighbor lady took him so grammy didn't have to (I was at work) He loves it and wishes it was all day everyday....the only bad thing is he's picking up attitude and we are having MAJOR issues combating it...hopefully that will turn around soon. Lucy's test all came back negative....which is good....nothing is wrong with those things and I should be rejoicing but a part of me wants some sort of a diagnosis....my reaction was....."then what in the world is wrong with my child !!!"....I guess I just want some answers and that's not going to happen for awhile....we are attempting 4 months of Occupational Therapy and then if that doesn't work we'll go to another specialist or have some more tests done....poor little Lucy! Ella is doing ok...she's still having some temper tantrums but she's happy most of the time and her smiles, hugs and kisses are bright lights to me right now...anyway I hope I have not depressed anyone by this update...it's just the scoop on us we are eating, sleeping and living through each day which is enough for me at this point in survival mode.

Almost a month later.....

It's been waaaaayyyy too long folks...way to long....what can I tell you about the past month.....it's gone...that's one thing! :) Man! Have our lives been crazy! We are in constant movement...well not at the beginning of the month...we were literally home 13 days straight with sick kids...if you've ever heard of Hand Foot and Mouth Disease pray that you never get it!! It's horrible and the girls were really sick. Ella was actually in the hospital for a couple days! Anyway we moved straight from that to the Roynon family vacation. We didn't go anywhere but it was fun to spend time with family and friends...moving on the Gideon's first day of school and Lucy's neurologist appointment which both went well....Gid's been in school now for a week and a half and absolutely LOVES it ....he feels like big stuff riding the bus (even though we are like a 1/2 mile from the school :) He brings home homework everynight and has adjusted to the time change (as in waking up early) very well!! If I could just get my girls adjusted!! Can we say cranky!! Anyway Lucy's appointment went well...in the next 2 weeks we have an MRI, MRA, Swallow Study, Genetics testing, Muscle Testing and Occupation Therapy to endure but hopefully in the end we will have a happy healthy and "able" Lucy! So...that's the brief synopsis of our last month!! I've attached a couple of pic's! Hope you enjoy~~